love in the time of national anxiety
there is a difference between an anxiety that sits in your chest like a walnut, waiting for the crows to swoop on in-
and-
feeling the fire burn in your heart as if you were the almighty phoenix alight in self-destruction not of a false pseudo psycho intellectual manner but in the way that clears the path for regeneration
i wonder if the difference between those two is
your opinion of where you are
because from moment to moment i am in the deep, fast moving current of a river carrying me to territory i have never even heard of, let alone have any kind of map for,
and
every time i find that walnut and see crows circling overhead
i just repeat to myself
the lines
this is how i am getting to be
the me i always held a secret dream for,
through the heart
of a phoenix on fire
and i am that phoenix
and i will always be that phoenix
as long as there is burning
and
as long as there is breath.
and-
feeling the fire burn in your heart as if you were the almighty phoenix alight in self-destruction not of a false pseudo psycho intellectual manner but in the way that clears the path for regeneration
i wonder if the difference between those two is
your opinion of where you are
because from moment to moment i am in the deep, fast moving current of a river carrying me to territory i have never even heard of, let alone have any kind of map for,
and
every time i find that walnut and see crows circling overhead
i just repeat to myself
the lines
this is how i am getting to be
the me i always held a secret dream for,
through the heart
of a phoenix on fire
and i am that phoenix
and i will always be that phoenix
as long as there is burning
and
as long as there is breath.