Sunday, January 29, 2017

BERLIN - LYRICS

BERLIN

by Erin

LYRICS

La di da da da, la di da da da,
La di da da da da…
La di da da da, la di da da da,
La di da da da da…

VERSE ONE
Streets are black from rain and I’m smokin’ out of character
Lost in the fog of my mind
Feels just like Berlin with the crumblin’ heaps of structure
Mirrorin’ the state I’m in

BRIDGE
Cant say yes, won’t say no, Maybe tomorrow
Faces all around me, maybe that’s the way I like it
Maybe tomorrow

CHORUS
I’m learnin’ how to love, love,
Shoulda learned it by now
I’m learnin’ what the truth it
I’ll find it some how
Tell me what’s true
Tell me what’s true
Oh, Berlin, is it you?

La di da da da, la di da da da,
La di da da da da…
La di da da da, la di da da da,
La di da da da da…

VERSE TWO
Our friend all think we’re crazy
And the birds are worryin’ ‘bout it
And all the fool choices we make
There’s gotta be a way, boy, that we can work it out
But it just never seems to take it


BRIDGE
Cant say yes, won’t say no, Maybe tomorrow
Faces all around me, maybe that’s the way I like it
Maybe tomorrow

CHORUS
I’m learnin’ how to love, love,
Shoulda learned it by now
I’m learnin’ what the truth it
I’ll find it some how
Just like Berlin, see me in need of a little rebuilding
See the gunshots, ages old, there to remind you
Despite the chaos there’s love, waiting for you
Just find the heart of me, I’m waiting for you
In Berlin
Tell me what’s true
Oh Berlin
Is it you?


Thursday, January 26, 2017

Pulling My Head Out of the Sand

I would like to highlight this:

"while the North Dakota state congress considers a bill that would legalize hitting and killing protestors with cars if they are on roadways."

!!!

This is not okay. This is NOT a humanistic value. This is not a religious value of any religion of which I am aware and/ or have studied (which includes Christianity, Judaism, Islam, Hinduism, Vedantism, Buddhism, and certain earth based, new age, and indigenous religions.)

I consider often that the level of alarm I feel right now is not shared by everyone and I seek to understand. I do not live in fear as a rule and as a practice. But I don't live in a bubble, either. I get some of these things, I understand people may be at varying levels of conservative to centrist to liberal and that is wonderful! Humans evolve because of sharing ideas that are contrary and finding compromises between one another... but.... legalizing hitting and killing protestors with cars because they are in the way (basically?) Wow. Wow. Wow. And if that's just "talk" coming out of anger, I am still shocked by things like... everything. Where do I begin?

By the way, it is true. I met Trump once on the set of Deal or No Deal. He was exactly what you would have expected: hitting on all the models. Not very interested in talking about anything other than himself, which is fine, that's entertainment. I didn't like him then, but that was just a personal impression. I have worked with people who have worked closely for him, and none of them like him either, but they were in service positions, they were respectful even when he was not because they had to be for income. But then I read the following list and I think, the time for being open minded is pretty much over, because we are talking about the values of love and service being steamrolled by the love of power and greed at BEST and at worst, yeah. Fascism. Why do you think wealthy silicon valley people are buying luxury condos in bunkers? It can happen here. I pray we are not watching the beginning of the downfall of our great empire.... I REALLY DO NOT SEE THE OPPOSITE HAPPENING HERE. I AM TRYING, TRUMP SUPPORTING FRIENDS, AND I AM NOT SEEING IT. I welcome your real enlightenment. NOT your singular unifying message PR, not snark, but real reasons. I have a lot of you who are smart and care about me. Show me the way. I beg you. Please.

And I do understand wanting "change." Many of you know I was a Bernie Sanders supporter for that very reason. I believe we need money OUT of politics and that it is time to shift our election system because our country HAS changed. I am not anti-capitalist and I am not anti-American (you all know I have an American flag on my wall! ON MY WALL and I'm one of those Urban, Cosmopolitan types so loathed by so many, except I love everyone and don't think that any one person is right, just opinionated, myself included.) Clearly, I'm not anti-capitalist. I work for myself and I want to grow and learn.

Speaking of snark, my turn: Luckily, my health insurance will likely be ending, and I'll probably just die of pneumonia because it's a pre existing condition and won't be able to afford medication next time I get it. I likely will get pneumonia again, since despite being relatively young and health-minded, I've had it 4 times in 5 years, and probably just out of sorrow and hard work, since I do work very hard, and my economic status is not for lack of intelligence or diligence but because I chose a life in the arts where income is unstable (sorry, by the way, for pursuing my heart and my bravery, Totally my choice! And I will deal with the consequences as I have and as I do.) I won't have to deal with this, instead my niece and nephew will. Not funny? I don't think so, either. Worth it? ... Yes.

Not my typical type of post but these are not typical times. We must educate ourselves on how quickly things can happen especially if we do nothing.
The timeline of Hitler's takeover of the Reich.
1) Jan 30, 1933 - Hitler appointed Chancellor.
2) Feb 4 -Decree to ban all political meetings
3) Feb 27 - Reichstag fire.
4) Feb 28- Emergency decree leading to suspension of civil rights and arrest of Communist and Socialist leaders
5) Mar. 28- Removal from the civil service of all Nazi opponents
6) April 7 - All Jews banned from public service.
7) June 28 - German Socialist Party banned.
8) July 5 - All political parties other than the Nazis banned.
In 6 months, Germany went from the most democratic country in Europe to the least. All of these acts were done legally.
A handy recap of the past 5 TRUMP days:
* On January 19th, 2017, DT said that he would cut funding for the DOJ’s Violence Against Women programs.
* On January 19th, 2017, DT said that he would cut funding for the National Endowment for the Arts.
* On January 19th, 2017, DT said that he would cut funding for the National Endowment for the Humanities.
* On January 19th, 2017, DT said that he would cut funding for the Corporation for Public Broadcasting.
* On January 19th, 2017, DT said that he would cut funding for the Minority Business Development Agency.
* On January 19th, 2017, DT said that he would cut funding for the Economic Development Administration.
* On January 19th, 2017, DT said that he would cut funding for the International Trade Administration.
* On January 19th, 2017, DT said that he would cut funding for the Manufacturing Extension Partnership.
* On January 19th, 2017, DT said that he would cut funding for the Office of Community Oriented Policing Services.
* On January 19th, 2017, DT said that he would cut funding for the Legal Services Corporation.
* On January 19th, 2017, DT said that he would cut funding for the Civil Rights Division of the DOJ.
* On January 19th, 2017, DT said that he would cut funding for the Environmental and Natural Resources Division of the DOJ.
* On January 19th, 2017, DT said that he would cut funding for the Overseas Private Investment Corporation.
* On January 19th, 2017, DT said that he would cut funding for the UN Intergovernmental Panel on Climate Change.
* On January 19th, 2017, DT said that he would cut funding for the Office of Electricity Deliverability and Energy Reliability.
* On January 19th, 2017, DT said that he would cut funding for the Office of Energy Efficiency and Renewable Energy.
* On January 19th, 2017, DT said that he would cut funding for the Office of Fossil Energy.
* On January 20th, 2017, DT ordered all regulatory powers of all federal agencies frozen.
* On January 20th, 2017, DT ordered the National Parks Service to stop using social media after RTing factual, side by side photos of the crowds for the 2009 and 2017 inaugurations.
* On January 20th, 2017, roughly 230 protestors were arrested in DC and face unprecedented felony riot charges. Among them were legal observers, journalists, and medics.
* On January 20th, 2017, a member of the International Workers of the World was shot in the stomach at an anti-fascist protest in Seattle. He remains in critical condition.
* On January 21st, 2017, DT brought a group of 40 cheerleaders to a meeting with the CIA to cheer for him during a speech that consisted almost entirely of framing himself as the victim of dishonest press.
* On January 21st, 2017, White House Press Secretary Sean Spicer held a press conference largely to attack the press for accurately reporting the size of attendance at the inaugural festivities, saying that the inauguration had the largest audience of any in history, “period.”
* On January 22nd, 2017, White House advisor Kellyann Conway defended Spicer’s lies as “alternative facts” on national television news.
* On January 22nd, 2017, DT appeared to blow a kiss to director James Comey during a meeting with the FBI, and then opened his arms in a gesture of strange, paternal affection, before hugging him with a pat on the back.
* On January 23rd, 2017, DT reinstated the global gag order, which defunds international organizations that even mention abortion as a medical option.
* On January 23rd, 2017, Spicer said that the US will not tolerate China’s expansion onto islands in the South China Sea, essentially threatening war with China.
* On January 23rd, 2017, DT repeated the lie that 3-5 million people voted “illegally” thus costing him the popular vote.
* On January 23rd, 2017, it was announced that the man who shot the anti-fascist protester in Seattle was released without charges, despite turning himself in.
* On January 24th, 2017, Spicer reiterated the lie that 3-5 million people voted “illegally” thus costing DT the popular vote.
* On January 24th, 2017, DT tweeted a picture from his personal Twitter account of a photo he says depicts the crowd at his inauguration and will hang in the White House press room. The photo is of the 2009 inauguration of 44th President Barack Obama, and is curiously dated January 21st, 2017, the day AFTER the inauguration and the day of the Women’s March, the largest inauguration related protest in history.
* On January 24th, 2017, the EPA was ordered to stop communicating with the public through social media or the press and to freeze all grants and contracts.
* On January 24th, 2017, the USDA was ordered to stop communicating with the public through social media or the press and to stop publishing any papers or research. All communication with the press would also have to be authorized and vetted by the White House.
* On January 24th, 2017, HR7, a bill that would prohibit federal funding not only to abortion service providers, but to any insurance coverage, including Medicaid, that provides abortion coverage, went to the floor of the House for a vote.
* On January 24th, 2017, DT ordered the resumption of construction on the Dakota Access Pipeline, while the North Dakota state congress considers a bill that would legalize hitting and killing protestors with cars if they are on roadways.
* On January 24th, 2017, it was discovered that police officers had used confiscated cell phones to search the emails and messages of the 230 demonstrators now facing felony riot charges for protesting on January 20th, including lawyers and journalists whose email accounts contain privileged information of clients and sources
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Wednesday, January 25, 2017

Guitarista

Always there is a sense of longing and a little urgency in the guitar, and yet the strings reverberate unto the silence so that the sense of completeness and finality never quite arrives. Eva wonders sometimes without words, feeling unfulfilled desire and yet wanting more, and yet the beauty of the music takes over and now the song is playing her, she is one with the guitar, no longer woman playing but now they are one living, breathing organism, and the guitar is part of her, and she is the guitar, and she is the wood, and the strings, and the neck and the frets, she is crying out this melody, and this counterpoint beneath the melody are the sounds of her yearnings and her thoughts in opposition, and then the song is over, but the echo within the body of the guitar courses through her very own veins.

Tuesday, January 3, 2017

2017, Thou Hast Arrived! ... Music, TV Series, Writing updates; Emily Dickinson, Mark Mallman, spies, Kansas, Sarah Brightman, and all things old are new again as all things new become old.

Hello, all! Happy new year. It is 2017, arbitrarily and confusingly the beginning of the year in the middle of everything, and while it is part of our consciousness and has been since the dawn of the Julian calendar or probably before that and I'm sure someone will tweet at me the proper information, I think mostly we humans just love to confound everything and make life wonderfully impossible and full of delightful complications, like having a new year in the middle of 8th grade.

2016 was my breakthrough year. I broke my dinosaur MacBookPro and am instead, for now, using my significant other's old roommate's old computer from college (Go Trojans, I guess! Circa 2005 or 2006, this computer and I have lived in LA the same amount of time, so that's cool.) The political system was broken open, or so the ubiquitous *they* will tell you, but we ancient poets know that it's just a variation on a theme and art is where it's at, always has been, always will be. I won't go through the deep losses of the last year except to mention the loss of a personal hero to me, Leonard Cohen. When I'm old, I hope I rock fedoras like he did. As I am young-ish still, I wear them only sometimes, but I aim to be as fashionable and styling as he was, only in a female glamour spy manner.

Speaking of spies, Carlo and I filmed a teaser for our new web series, "Spy V Spia!" It's really a proof of concept, designed to show viewers and potential investors (such as yourself?) the relationship and sexual tension between the two leads (conveniently located here in our apartment, LOL.)

"Spy V Spia" is a will they/ won't they romantic comedy with a spy parody twist. Two rival international spies accidentally become neighbors and form a love hate frenemy state, until ninjas attack, and our unlikely buddies must band together to save the world. The show itself will have stunts, evil organizations, Bond boys and Bond girls, plenty of Minnesota and Italy jokes, and even a tiny tiny tiny tiny blippet of opera. It also has an awesome theme song composed by Mark Mallman and sung by yours truly, coming soon. But until then, you can watch the Proof of Concept video clip here!



I am so passionately excited about life this year. I am attached to star in a new TV show as a police detective, "Emergency: LA," and another project I wrote with my excellent bosom friend Anzu has a wonderful and successful showrunner attached (but we can't say anything about that just yet!) I'm brunette again and planning on doing some live streaming singing concerts in the next few months as I prepare to sing alongside a Russian choir for a movie filming in Sardinia and raise money to shoot the web series mentioned above. I'm still writing away at a novel (every morning at least a little bit) and while my holidays were wonderfully relaxing (dead computer = no computer in Minnesota = no distractions = lots of the lost art of reading!) I am thrilled to be moving and grooving in 2017.

But make no mistake, I am still working my day jobs, for which I am grateful, and working on getting fit for "Emergency: LA" while not getting too crazy about eating (file under: eating disorders and "StandUpera," my one woman show) and I have a few personal goals: be a better friend and family member this year.

I'm (re)-reading:
"Man's Search for Meaning," by Viktor Frankl 
"The House of the Spirits" by Isabelle Allende
"Romeo & Juliet" by Wm. Shakespeare

I'm reading for the first time:
"The Big Leap" by Gay Hendricks (trying to kick my self help habit but then, why?)
"A Man Called Ove" by Fredrik Backman 

I'm watching:
"The OA" on Netflix

and I cannot WAIT to see
"Toni Erdmann" the film.

I'm listening to:
"Lala Land" soundtrack




I'm thinking about American Impressionist and Expressionist painter Jane Peterson after seeing a private collection of her works at a dear friend's. I'm wondering how to make millions so I, too, can invest in art and the fostering of creatives (starting with myself.) 



I'm also thinking about pink champagne (like the kind I drank on New Year's Eve), tiaras and rhinestone headbands, the roaring 20s and the state of humanity. When I get to that final thing I'm pondering, I shut down, take Henry Monster for a walk, and regard the cacti plants in the gloomy southern California drought. For now, it's better that way, since the revolution is within and therefore will be televised but through the creations of characters and stories that tell us who we were, who we are, and who we are not, as we push up against the witnessing of storytelling, our ontological beings at the fire of Netflix and Amazon and YouTube.

I'm eternally reading this poem by Emily Dickinson:

This quiet dust was gentlemen and ladies
And lads and girls;
Was laughter and ability and sighing,
And frocks and curls;

This passive place a summer's nimble mansion,
Where bloom and bees
Fulfilled their oriental circuit,
Then ceased like these. 

And let me close with a little bit of the classic rock band, Kansas, or better yet, the classical pop crossover delight Sarah Brightman's version of their hit, "Dust in the Wind."